ok, so I am going to just vent...
I am sorry to any of you who actually read this,
its not pretty...
I have had the worst fucking 2 days.
Andy and I have been in non-agreement and continual argument.
So today, after a stupid, obsolete arguement, he decided that he was going to leave.
Playing mental games the whole time.
And then he continued to say how hard it was (even though all he had to do was pack a bag and go, which he didn't do),
but in reality, I am the one who would have been left to clean up, take care of what he left (if he actually had gone), take care of the dogs (one of which is "technically" his) and find a new place to live with the 2 dogs (not an easy or cheap task in this neck of the woods).
So what the fuck!
I'm sorry, but this is bullshit.
I have spent the morning crying and being upset, but now I am just pissed.
He still hasn't technically left (he has threatened this before when he gets upset),
he went to work for a couple of hours and I still don't know what is going on....
However, he felt the need this morning to change his relationship status on facebook to SINGLE.
How immature that he feels the need to change something on a completely obsolete site so all of our friends can see before the fight was even close to being over!
I am so mad I don't even know what to say or do.
I am FURIOUS!
It always starts out simple and small and expands into a gigantic black hole.
I am not even close to perfect,
I am probably as mental as they come,
but what the hell!?!
I don't know what is going on,
or what to do.
And feel like I want to scream.
I do know that I don't need this,
or to look like the crazy, controlling girlfriend...
(which I am not)
Again I am sorry if you have read this.
I am sorry for the language.
But it had to come out somewhere.
Typically I don't like talking about this kind of situation much.
I don't usually put this crappy burden on friends,
but I just needed to vent.