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...So, I have been feeling a bit unmotivated lately.

I don't know about you, but I find that when I stop or pause (for any length of time) from the creative process, there is a whole separate process that ensues when trying to delve back into the very core of creating.

This is where I am stuck. I am stuck here.

It isn't always as simple as sit down, get out supplies and go. It takes time, it takes thought, inspiration, movement, emotion, etc., and then maybe, finally I can get down to the actual thing: making, creating.

Sure, I could just make stuff, but to really get the "real deal" out of it I can't just throw my understanding of this process aside, muse has her own mind made up about how she wants to share her goods.

It is the core I am trying to get to, you see. The raw, unhindered core. Like when I was a child.

There is so much thought involved in adult creativity. Deep thought, surface thought, worries and doubts. I find I have to sift through a lot of that muck to get myself to a place where I feel free enough to really pull out what I am trying to share with the external world around me.

This is what I have come to understand through the years of my life and years of creating. Maybe it is only me.... Maybe others are less inhibited in this field and I just need to work on letting go of control a little bit. I want to find balance.

So my goal is to accomplish one creative thing a day. Even if that is just doing a little sketch, knitting a few rows on a current project or making an actual decision on what design I want to make into a screen for printing next... I grapple with indecision.

So for now I guess I will be focusing on what just makes me happy and sharing the beauty I see.

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A thought on inspiration and creativity

I had been dreaming up some simple, bold, seed beaded necklace designs for quite some time...

I acquired an array of beads a while ago... and then did nothing. Beading is one of the crafts I started with and lately I have been feeling like I almost need to start over, start simple, to refocus my motivation. 

These things can't be forced. This is something I have to remind myself frequently, anytime I find myself out of the "flow" of creativity. I have found, for me, my creative cycle stays more consistent if I have multiple projects going on at any given time so I always have something else to shift to if I get bored or stuck on whatever I am working on. If I take to long of a break, have to lengthy of a gap between projects I have to start the cycle all over again. By start over again, what I mean is I have to go to places that inspire me, surround myself with beautiful things, have good conversations with people, play, laugh, dance, take in the colors of the world around me. Basically, live life aware and with intention.

I have found that I have to build myself up to a certain point to be able to start pulling out what is bubbling up inside, what ignites and electrifies my soul and forces me to create something physically. This can take hours, days, weeks, sometimes even months. It can be very frustrating, but in the end I always find passion. Passion is a large part of why I do what I do. I want to feel passion for what I do on a daily basis. I want to be in love with it. It is a relationship all on its own and it can be very difficult to maintain, but I love, long for and need it all the same.

So with that, I have been inspired to make these necklaces. They are of simple construction, but there is something about that simplicity, paired with the definitive, luridness of color that just sparks an emotion in my core. Many of them I add crystals to, crystals that I feel connected to for the individual piece, crystals to evoke a certain energy when worn so close to the heart. I believe in color as a therapy and these make me happy and smile.... That is what it is all about.

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You want to watch this...

If you like watching another artists creative process.

Trust me.

SUPAKITCH & KORALIE - VÄRLDSKULTUR MUSEET GÖTEBORG from elr°y on Vimeo.

How insane was that?

Good Day Ladies and Gentlemen.